Monday, August 29, 2005
Affairs of the Heart...How Scary!
My almost 13 year old is starting 8th grade with a new crush. He is a new boy she met with one of her friends a few days ago, and it's ALL she's talked about! I don't think I've ever seen her fall this hard. All last year she had eyes for her dear sweet cutie pie Ben. Well, I haven't even heard her speak of Ben since meeting this new boy, Brecken. Brecken seems like a pretty good kid, but I've only seen him in a crowd, I haven't spoken to him. A good friend of my baby girl has been friends with Brecken for a while and has told her all about him. Today her friend was here and they went into her room and called Brecken and Logan, the friend, asked Brecken all sorts of questions..."What did you think of the short blonde girl?" and told him all about her saying stuff like "She's really cool." and "I've liked her for a long time but she doesn't like me that way" and stuff like that. It is clear that Logan is trying to be match maker. I'm ok with this but I do have fears. I fear that my baby will fall hard for this boy and this boy won't return the same feelings. I fear that her heart will be broken and she won't look at another boy. This sort of thing happened last year with Ben. Ben was always nice to her and they became good friends during the course of the year, but it was obvious that that was all he intended with her. He was well aware of how much Baby Girl liked him and kept just enough distance so he wouldn't have to deal with it. For this I'm grateful because it made it less painful for my daughter. 
With Brecken I'm not so sure. I honestly have NEVER seen her this excited about a boy. I know I sound like a fool, thinking like she would never have these feelings. I knew it was coming. I'm just not sure she's ready to handle it if he rejects her. She expected the rejection from Ben last year so it didn't bother her much. If she throws herself at Brecken, which is exactly what she's been doing for the past few days, and he ignores it I'm so afraid that it will crush her. Tomorrow I have been told that Logan will be here and Brecken is coming over with him. Does this mean that my fears are uncalled for? I don't know. Time will tell I suppose. I only hope that I am clever enough to show her that I'm here for her without alienating her. That has been happening lately a lot. She is pulling away from me in a big way. Lord give me the strength to see her through this one. And maybe Lord you could cut my child a break and let this boy like her, just a little bit...she's so unsure of herself these days. I'll post again on the outcome of this young soap opera of sorts...til next time all.
