Friday, July 22, 2005
High's and Low's
It has always amazed me how life can be so up one minute and then so down the next. This summer has been no exception. We have had some wonderful high points in life here...a couple of great weekends camping, a smile on my daughters face almost every day, money matters seem to be at an even keel, been in touch with some old friends, really awesome sex lately...well, I'm sure you get the picture. Then life has dealt us some pretty intense low points...Trouble with vehicles, an upset at the mill and we are still wondering if his job will last much longer, death in the family, Mom hasn't been doing to well lately, and other family members have problems I just can't help them with. I just don't understand why life can't just go along at a steady pace. What force of nature creates all the exceptionally good times for us that have us on cloud nine and then slaps us in the face with tragedy and grief and worry? If it us ourselves that unconciously create the problems? I don't know. Take yesterday for an example...Woke up in a great mood. Two hours later we were in it up to our asses tearing apart rotten wood from a deck at camp and dodging a nest of bumble bees in the process. When we finished we were all sweaty and dirty and just plain feeling miserable. Things started looking brighter on the way home. Daughter had a good friend to keep her company and when we got here I made an awesome supper that hit the spot of all our bellies. Swam for a while and then hubby and I engaged in some of the best sex we've had in quite some time...just like we were young lovers again. Then everything came crashing down when I went to check on my ailing mother only to find out she was in so much pain that she couldn't even walk. This just killed the mood created by good food and great sex. Now we were all in constant worry and that feeling of helplessness overwhelmed us all. We did all get a good nights sleep and the day started off pretty good today, with a nice kayaking adventure and a trip to the seafood market for lobster. Then we get home and mom is in even worse shape than the night before. Nothing I could do for her as she sat there in tears as Dad changed her bandages. With all these High's and Low's that we deal with every day it's no wonder we are all stressed right out. I dream of a place where problems never find you. Beautiful Landscaping everywhere and the sounds of nature all around you. No phone to answer and hear bad news from. No computer where you find out other people you care about are having the same high's and low's as you are. Sunshine most of the time and cozy beds for tremendous night's sleep. No worries over jobs and teenage drama. No stress over the dirt and dust in your home. Is there such a place? I doubt it...so tonight I think I'll dream about it. Maybe we all should. That's it til next time everyone...hopefully that dream will come true and the next post will be pure bliss. Peace to everyone!
