Wednesday, December 07, 2005
Finding A Happier Place!
I woke up early today, actually never went back to sleep once Hubby left for work at 4:00 a.m. You would think that being woke up so early would put me in a negative mood but for some reason it didn't. I am happier and more energetic then I have been in weeks. Why would I all of a sudden get like this?? I don't know, let's reassess and see if there are any links...
Mom is feeling tons better. I went with her yesterday to her wound care appointment and Sue (her wound specialist) was amazed at her progression of healing just in the last couple of weeks. Mom went on Cytoxin which is an extremely powerful drug used in cancer treatments. It is also used to heal wounds like she has from her Vasculitis. The past two or three weeks I have seen a major improvement in not only my mothers health but in her attitude towards life. She is still the chronic complainer and can never see the positive side of anything but she is excited for the holiday coming up and she isn't in hardly as much pain now. It does my heart good to see her getting back to her old self.
The new job as cheering coach is going well. It is ALWAYS stressful and everyday there is some new obstacle to overcome but in general I think I am doing a good job for the district and my girls look wonderful. Our first game went great and I hope to accomplish great strides with these young ladies before the end of the season. I may be losing two or three today for different reasons that are out of my control but other than that I wake up every day thinking about what I can teach them that 's new and fun. OMG! I think I might even be a little excited about this little venture of mine. Can you believe it?
Baby Girl is growing up...and after reading a journal she's been keeping at school in writing class, I am resting easier knowing that she really DOES have a handle on her life. I've stressed about her lately because I see her in different moods and she won't talk to me or her daddy about stuff anymore and that had me concerned. Some of the enteries she made in that journal proved to me that I have nothing to fear. She is a normal teenage girl growing into a beautiful young woman and her passions are way more than just "what am I going to get" or "it's all about ME" . She has a true heart and strong convictions and I am proud to say that she is MINE!
Hubby and I are somewhat on the road to recovery. Actually we are more like, lets cross this bridge when we come to it. We still have some major problems to work through but we are both putting it all on hold at least through the holidays. There will be another time and place that will be a more appropriate time and place where we can devote our energy to getting it right once and for all. I watched him last night as he lay sleeping and I tried to picture life without him...Guess what? Can't do it! He is my whole world and without him I'd be nothing. He is a royal pain in the ass and is the core of most of my stress but I do love him and so much want to work out our problems. Wish me luck...I'm going to need it!
I'm trying to get back into blogging...so much to let out, some good some bad, and blooging really helps. I'm sure you all know that. And my blogger buddies are the best in the world. Sis Mel keeps me grounded every day and Sheri offers great advice and sends humor though her posts. Scotty has lifted my spirits when they were at their lowest, even if he didn't relize he was doing it and I am so grateful for the three of these people! I'm lucky to have them in my life.
The holiday rush is over for me...Now I only need to go to the store when I WANT to go. My shopping is done and it feels great! Now I just have the never ending task of wrapping everything. Yuck! Christmas at Mels this weekend and it should be a blast. After that it's just whatever I decide to do here. Office party at work on the 16th and if I go I'll get extremely drunk as usual. I don't think I'm going this year though...just not up to the hangover the next day...I'm feeling too good lately!
Speaking of feeling good, that's a bit misleading...I am having some health issues but nothing serious, or at least I don't think they are anything too serious. Really should make an appointment with the doctors but just can't seem to find the time. After the holiday for sure though. Eyedoctor will get a call soon and I really want to get rid of these glasses...I hate them. Then the dermatologist so I can find out what this shit on my face is...I know it's not acne and not rosacea...hoping it isn't some form of cancer. All I know is my face is very tender and scaring more and more. I'm not too pleased with that either. So All is not perfect in Julie's world but I'm definitely trying to make it better!
Scotty asked me today for a picture of myself. Since I am now the proud owner of a digital camera I just might try to come up with one. Please don't be frightened away people, I'm not the prettiest person but I am not an old hag either. I promise my darlin' Scotty that you will get a more recent and BETTER picture soon...better than the one I sent you! Maybe Mel and I will work on that this weekend! We'll see.
Guess that's enough about me for one day...I think it's time for another MEME so I'm going exploring to find a good one. Til next time beautiful people!
