Thursday, November 03, 2005
Just Getting By...
Ook...Many of you have been on my case for not posting anything for a while. If you read my last post you will have realized that I've been going through some stuff, and although it may not have seemed that "intense" to some of you, it is still that way for me. Actually no even more so...
I am trying to spend time thinking aobut hwat the root of all my problems are and so far I haven't figured it out. I am better, not quite as sad, but I still cry just about every day and many times during the day I have a terrible overwhelming feeling wash over me.
As for what has been going on in my life, well, not a whole lot. I got the coaching position for cheerleading that I applied for so that will keep me busy until February. I'm a little nervous about it but I am finding support in a very good friend and it helps. Baby Girl is ecstatic that I will be coaching her again. I bet because she thinks she will get special treatment from mom...NOT!
Hubby has been working too many hours, not by choice, and I miss him every day. He does have vacation coming up in a couple of weeks but it will be spent hunting. I will be running a book fair at the school that entire week so time spent with hubby will be very little. Anyone out there want to donate a second honeymoon to Hawaii to me? Hubby and I need the time away! LOL
I have been trying to get some holiday shopping done. It isn't going as smoothly as I had hoped. I stressed out about Hubby's family and had a major meltdown about having it all on my shoulders and sweet Hubby up and said he'd handle anything that had to be done for his side. I didn't realize it until today what a relief it was for me. 
Thank goodness for my dear husband.
I have done quite a bit of shopping for my daughter and it has been pretty easy so far. She asked for very little and when we discussed it with her she said there just wasn't anything she really wanted and asked if we could get a digital camera for all of us instead of extra under the tree...so...now I'm in the market for a decent digital. Any suggestions out there?
Weather has turned colder up here in rural Maine but I love it. I long for evenings under a comfy blanket watching movies and eating popcorn. I look forward to cross country skiing, even though I'll probably end up with a broken neck from it. Hubby and I ALWAYS take long walks after supper when there is a light snow falling
and I can't wait for that either. The cold on the other hand we can all do without.
I have some medical shit going on and I really SHOULD get myself to the doctors office soon. Just never seems to be enough time or money for it. I would elaborate on the stuff going on but I really don't htink it's anything other than me getting older. Some of my close friends think I'm playing with fire...maybe I am. I just hate doctors and usually have to be pretty sick before I'll go. It's just the way I am. Some of the problems have to do with my teeth and that will be ok to wait on. Other problems have to do with "women" issues. Believe me you don't want to know! And I'm not really sure where the depression and crying is steming from. I'll figure it all out someday and until then I just go through the motions of the day everyday.
I know this isn't my usual type of post but I wanted to let you all know that I'm ok and thank you for caring enough to wonder about me. Soon I'll be back to my usual self and I'll do some awesome posts...until then remember that I read each and every one of you every day. And most of you make me smile. Thank you for that! Love to you all....
