Monday, October 10, 2005
What's Up With This?
Life can be going along pretty well and then BAM!, it hits you like a ton of bricks...DEPRESSION! I know you can all relate. I think it was Mel and Scotty that blogged about this recently. It catches you off guard and topples your world. You wonder if it will ever get anybetter. That's the situation I'm in right now, and I really don't know why...Maybe you all can help me figure it out...
It started a few days ago...I haven't been sleeping well (although I HAVE been gettting a few hours a night) and at first I thought it was just that that was causing me to feel not quite myself. But as it went on for a couple more days I started to assess why I might be feeling this way and I was doubting that lack of sleep was the issue.
Maybe it's the lack of confidence I'm feeling about the new possible coaching position that I could be holding in my hands within a month.
Maybe it's that my face is once again covered with sore spots that no amount of over the counter meds is helping.
Maybe it's that Baby Girl is shutting me out of her life once again. Maybe it's dealing with mom's health issues getting to me.
Maybe it's the fact that I'm trying to make my daughters birthday really nice for her and it's not working out.
Maybe it's the fact that no matter how hard hubby tries to make ends meet, it's just never enough.
Maybe it's the soaking rains that we've been getting and the lack of sunshine I am craving so deeply.
Maybe it's this damned headache that I wake up with every morning.
Maybe it's the problem with my teeth that I'm having and because they don't feel right, I don't feel right.
Maybe it's my neglect for my health and there is some underlying problem that is making me feel this way...
It really doesn't matter what the reason, I'M DEPRESSED! And I HATE it!
So, how am I going to pull myself out of it? Getting Blasted Drunk might help! But then I would have to wake up with a hangover the next morning and that wouldn't be much fun at all. What bothers me the most about this is I'm not the type of person that wallows in self pity. And here I am wallowing. What is going on with me?
I could send myslef a bunch of flowers... 
I could eat all the chocolate in the house and then send honey out for more...
Maybe a bubble bath with lighted candles and thoughts of a secluded tropical island somewhere... 
The chocolate is doable, as is the bubble bath with candles. I think I just might go try it...
I'll post again soon and I truly hope that the mood will be a better one...Later Peeps!
